All my life I have always been the leader. I’m not a big or tall female by any stretch, but I’ve always had an intimidating demeanor that saved my ass a lot of times and helped me to get my way any other time (read: Serious Nepoleon Complex).
Well, I’m starting to humble myself.
I’m starting to listen to my friends instead of telling them what they should do, and things are just….changing. I’m not sure what to make of it, other than the fact that I’m growing into the woman that I already THOUGHT I was!!
I just got off the phone with one of my friends and she actually taught me something about myself that no one else was really bold enough to say. she told me that I hold grudges for an EXTRA long time and that I have this passive-aggressive personality that can really be detrimental for long term relationships. WOW
I know I’ve ripped her a new one a couple of times, but damn! I didn’t know I was a total biach!! Nevertheless, it was all taken in stride and even still I feel that our relationship is making a MAJOR 180 degree turn and I’m actually humbling myself so that I can enjoy the ride and not fight it.
Things are starting to change for my marriage as well. My husband and I are starting to feel life after the honeymoon phase and it’s really taking some getting use to. I’m not knocking it, but man, why did it have to happen so soon??!! LOL
Oh and on another note, I’m working on my resume and cover letter for the job. Consider it DONE before the deadline!!
Oh mannn… I used to be a grudge holder. It really takes more energy to hold a grudge than to forgive the person and move on. It’s still hard though.
Comment by Rece — June 11, 2008 @ 9:21 pm